So, it's been a few days since I've blogged! Not because I have forgotten that I have a blog, but because I want to blog when I feel that God would have me to!! I believe that God led me to start this blog for a reason, so I want to be sensitive to His guiding, and try to blog only when He wants me to!! Only when He has something to say, and not just Lori!
Father, I pray that this blog will be a vessel for you!! I pray Lord that I will only write what you have put in my heart, not a letter or a word more!! Whatever brings you the most glory!!!
If anyone has been around me, at all, the last few months, you have probably heard me talking about our money being tight or me being broke!! I don't think I would call it whining, just being very honest about our present situation!! (I'm probably too honest some times, because really everyone doesn't need to know or want to know all of my business!!!) But nonetheless, you've probably heard me allude to it!!! Between me going part-time, being off for 12 weeks (pretty much without pay), the adoption costs, just regular costs of having a newborn, regular pediatrician appointments, and then specialty doctor appointments, not to mention our regular bills, and some home problems, our banking account has significantly dwindled!! There have been weeks where I had no idea where the money was going to come from!! A little side note here: there are major issues going on with our house right now like some leaking, INTO THE LIVING ROOM, and basement, all because of clogged gutters and rotten boards!! Here's the part I want you to catch...God knew where every single penny was going to come from and He provided it, EXACTLY when we needed it!! Not one single, solitary bill/note has been missed or late!! We have had food on our table (whether I cooked it or Ronald did), the baby has had diapers and formula everytime he needed them, the dogs have even had food when they needed it, the power has stayed on, the car has had gas, the water has continued to run, the phone continues to ring, (sometimes, to my dismay) etc...I could go on and on!!! Get this little detail!! We received a good chunk of money and A LOT of gift cards at our baby showers! I used a gift card every week, up until the week AFTER I started back to work!! And then after the gift cards were gone, we received money for our birthdays or late baby presents,(basically diapers or more gift cards!) Belated birthday presents that came at just the right time!! Brad's sweet Granny gives us formula every time we see her! Just today she gave me 2 cans of Isomil! Also, we received a check in the mail for $1000.00 for an escrow reimbursement from where we closed on our house almost 3 years ago!!! See what I am getting at!! God has continually provided for us! If you are a child of the King's you really can trust Him AND His word! You don't have to worry about where the money is going to come from, because God knows and has known since before the world was created!! Think of the endless number of hours that we have spent worrying about money, how bills are going to get paid, how we're going to buy the kids new shoes, how are we going to fix the leaks in our house, how will we afford gas for the car, or food for the table? What if every time we find ourselves worrying about money, we make an effort in our minds to say, "Not, how are we going to pay for this or that...., but Thank you Lord for already providing for us!!!" I pray Lord that we always remember that we can trust you and your Holy Word!! I pray Lord that if we are trying to carry our own financial burdens, Lord, that we will confess that to You, and we know Lord, that because of what your word says, that You will give us a peace that passes all understanding and You WILL provide for us!!
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lillies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
I have prayed diligently about getting the gutters fixed, so that there will be no more leaking IN our house!! I have tried to figure out a way MYSELF to pay for the gutters to be fixed! But, every time I pray I get the answer, "Not right now. Trust me!" You may be thinking, "Wow, she's crazy! It's JUST gutters and besides that, their causing leaks IN to her house." I know it sounds kinda funny, but I believe that God is trying to teach me to trust him with EVERYTHING!!! He's not blind-sighted by the fact that my house leaks!! He wants me to trust that He will take care of me, in all things!!!!
So, I am listening closely for His sweet voice and waiting patiently for what's next! I do hope that we won't have to buy umbrellas so we can sit in our living room, but then again, if we do, I am sure that God will provide those too!!
He's in the details!!
Not our time, but His perfect timing!!!